It was such a disaster for me today. It's the day she went out to the church together with her friends. Well, I know that a disaster will going to happen. Early in the morning she texted me asking whether she should go or not, i told her that she can go but the possibility for us to be together is very2 little. then, she told me that she doesn't want to go but then I told her that I won't go if she dosn't want to go.
At last she went out. At first I really don't want her to go coz i know something will happen...for sure...coz i can predict the future sometimes. When I do lots of planning, I can see a slight future for it. I let her go becoz I scared if I wont let her go her all of her friends will blame me for doing that. Afterall her friends probably want her to go too. As long she is happy I dont mind. She sent a sms to me last night that she will go together with her friends. OK, I dont mind at all afterall we've going out together so many times already.
I've been attacked by that Brian again when he saw her. He smiled and said to me "Hah lewis, Ni pasti pergi dating nanti nie...hehe." I was so angry because there were lots of people at the bus stop. Why cant everybody give me a break for me and her? Why can't everybody give a room and privacy to both of us? Why is everybody want to know about our relationship? Are they jealous or what? Why cant they themselves go and look for one? I got her becoz of my hardwork and someone is trying to ruin everything down. I got no mood already when I was in the bus. Even in the church I paid no attention to the priest at all. I was thinking and worrying about her coz i know something will happen later. I know she will face the same problem like what I faced just now. I was so...so...out of my mind.
If i pulled her to me, her friends will say something bad again about her. I pity her so I just her to go together with her friends. Let me take the blame because I love her a lot!
The disaster started when we were at the Lot66 where we didnt sit with each other. I walked passed her, I just smiled at her coz I'm happy if she likes it that way. She can come to me anytime she wants, i'll welcome her to sit by my side. But she just continue sitting with the group of girls. I'm of coz so shy to go there where there're lots of girls.
Then I saw she and her friends going somewhere out from the Lot66, she walked passed me, she didnt even look at me. she 'sms' me after I asked her where she was going. She told me that she was going to Megamall. I didnt follow her coz she'd told me that she will go together with her friends. But then Vanessa and her friends kept looking at me as if want to check whether I'm going to follow her or not. I didnt move from my sit. I knew that they will say something bad about me. Fine! Just say laa... I dont mind!
When I wanted to go back, i felt a little bit weird. I felt something thats not right. Honestly I really miss her and we shouldnt separate from each other. Then, I texted her and ask whether she wanted to follow me or not , but she said no need! And told me that her friends said that I'm 'Useless'. Alright, fine! She probably agreed with it till she switched off her handphone. She angry? I sms her a lot but cant get her replies. Then, I went back home disappointedly.
In the evening, she sms me and told me that her handphone had a low batt thats why she cant receive my calls and my sms. I was no mood at that time, then I purposely switch it off. That night, I felt so sorry for her. I started to miss her. I went to get a car and went out to buy smash potato for her. I knew that she will be very sad. I know that she really love me very much... so, do I. Even this incident happened, I still miss her. Frankly saying, I really love her too. I met her. To my surprise, she begged me not to be angry anymore. I really feel sorry for her.
Bie BIe,
Actually, I was not angry with you coz I know it's not your fault too. You told me that you cried just because of me and I felt so sorry to you. I won't do that anymore. I thought you were angry with me, but still I know that you wont do that to me right? Just want you to know that... I really love you so much that I can't easily hurt your feeling. I will love you always de...
I'm so sorry that I made you cry. Actually I was not angry with you. I was just so sad and disappointed that I cant go out with you coz usually we will go out together right? So sad because I miss you a lot... I was so touched when you said that actually you wanted to go out together with me, and me too...I really want to go out with you too but dont know why this happen to us. I promise you that next time we will be TOGETHER whenever we go, OK Bie bie?
I promise you that I'll not going to let this happen to us again, ok? And you must promise me that you must not cry for me ok? Whatever happen to me... or even I die...please dont cry for me... because...
I ALWAYS LOVE YOU ---<@
Love,
Loey
At last she went out. At first I really don't want her to go coz i know something will happen...for sure...coz i can predict the future sometimes. When I do lots of planning, I can see a slight future for it. I let her go becoz I scared if I wont let her go her all of her friends will blame me for doing that. Afterall her friends probably want her to go too. As long she is happy I dont mind. She sent a sms to me last night that she will go together with her friends. OK, I dont mind at all afterall we've going out together so many times already.
I've been attacked by that Brian again when he saw her. He smiled and said to me "Hah lewis, Ni pasti pergi dating nanti nie...hehe." I was so angry because there were lots of people at the bus stop. Why cant everybody give me a break for me and her? Why can't everybody give a room and privacy to both of us? Why is everybody want to know about our relationship? Are they jealous or what? Why cant they themselves go and look for one? I got her becoz of my hardwork and someone is trying to ruin everything down. I got no mood already when I was in the bus. Even in the church I paid no attention to the priest at all. I was thinking and worrying about her coz i know something will happen later. I know she will face the same problem like what I faced just now. I was so...so...out of my mind.
If i pulled her to me, her friends will say something bad again about her. I pity her so I just her to go together with her friends. Let me take the blame because I love her a lot!
The disaster started when we were at the Lot66 where we didnt sit with each other. I walked passed her, I just smiled at her coz I'm happy if she likes it that way. She can come to me anytime she wants, i'll welcome her to sit by my side. But she just continue sitting with the group of girls. I'm of coz so shy to go there where there're lots of girls.
Then I saw she and her friends going somewhere out from the Lot66, she walked passed me, she didnt even look at me. she 'sms' me after I asked her where she was going. She told me that she was going to Megamall. I didnt follow her coz she'd told me that she will go together with her friends. But then Vanessa and her friends kept looking at me as if want to check whether I'm going to follow her or not. I didnt move from my sit. I knew that they will say something bad about me. Fine! Just say laa... I dont mind!
When I wanted to go back, i felt a little bit weird. I felt something thats not right. Honestly I really miss her and we shouldnt separate from each other. Then, I texted her and ask whether she wanted to follow me or not , but she said no need! And told me that her friends said that I'm 'Useless'. Alright, fine! She probably agreed with it till she switched off her handphone. She angry? I sms her a lot but cant get her replies. Then, I went back home disappointedly.
In the evening, she sms me and told me that her handphone had a low batt thats why she cant receive my calls and my sms. I was no mood at that time, then I purposely switch it off. That night, I felt so sorry for her. I started to miss her. I went to get a car and went out to buy smash potato for her. I knew that she will be very sad. I know that she really love me very much... so, do I. Even this incident happened, I still miss her. Frankly saying, I really love her too. I met her. To my surprise, she begged me not to be angry anymore. I really feel sorry for her.
Bie BIe,
Actually, I was not angry with you coz I know it's not your fault too. You told me that you cried just because of me and I felt so sorry to you. I won't do that anymore. I thought you were angry with me, but still I know that you wont do that to me right? Just want you to know that... I really love you so much that I can't easily hurt your feeling. I will love you always de...
I'm so sorry that I made you cry. Actually I was not angry with you. I was just so sad and disappointed that I cant go out with you coz usually we will go out together right? So sad because I miss you a lot... I was so touched when you said that actually you wanted to go out together with me, and me too...I really want to go out with you too but dont know why this happen to us. I promise you that next time we will be TOGETHER whenever we go, OK Bie bie?
I promise you that I'll not going to let this happen to us again, ok? And you must promise me that you must not cry for me ok? Whatever happen to me... or even I die...please dont cry for me... because...
I ALWAYS LOVE YOU ---<@
Love,
Loey
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